The Fall, the Chaos, and the Cast

Academic violence, autism, and reconstruction through creative chaos. A researcher’s visceral account of institutional violence.

On November 25, 2025, I closed a cycle of pain that began during my master’s degree in April 2022. This period of roughly four years was marked by a feeling of failure in the social sphere and by a withdrawal that brought about some financial setbacks. On this decisive day, a troubled relationship with my academic background—largely responsible for my evolution as a human being—also came to an end. Professionally, by mundane standards, I cannot claim the status of success; however, by my own parameters, this path made me the researcher and thinker I decided to be on the day I chose to study Philosophy instead of Literature.